The nurse called my cell phone and left me a voice mail asking me to return her call last Friday.
It makes me kind of nervous when you get a phone call from the doctor's office. I mean, usually when the results are normal and there's nothing to worry about they just send you a letter in the mail. They usually don't even sign it. In fact, it's something they just printed off of their hard drive and hand checked the 'normal' box.
But when it's not normal they call. And when they call and get voice mail they won't tell you what's going on. They just tell you to call them back. They don't even hint at what's going on.
But when it's super bad they take it to the next step; they schedule you a follow-up appointment. I've never had one of those and I hope I never do.
So when I heard the cryptic message (This is Dr. So and So's office. Please give me a call back regarding your lab results.) I got a little nervous. Did I forget to mention that the nurse called first thing in the morning - yes, before 8am.
So my heart races, I breathe deep and I call. I eventually get the nurse and she has to look up my chart. What??? She forgot who I am; she forgot the results?!? Believe it or not that makes me feel better. If my hormone levels were so out of whack and I was doomed to infertility, well you think she'd remember that.
She finds the results...they...are...normal! Yeehaw (as my son would say)!
Then she says something that threw me for a loop. "Dr. So and So wants to know if you want her to give you a referal to an infertility specialist."
"Uhh, umm, uhh", I respond. (Deep, I know.) I never thought of seeing a specialist. I mean, sure it's been 14 whole months of trying to get pregnant. But, on the other hand it's only been 14 months.
When you think of it, it's only 14 unsuccessful attempts. Fourteen times no one on the swim team has found the coveted egg at the finish line. I think we'll continue to give the team a chance.
"No, thanks. But if I ever change my mind I'll call you back." At least I know I have a bridge that hasn't been burned.